So the day is finally over but not really. My kids are in bed but not really because about every 5 minutes one of them is looking for me to tell me they can't get to sleep. I can't imagine why....I have one that cannot sleep unless the TV is on all night but she doesn't watch it (yeah right) and one that just sits up and says he can't get to sleep. Hmmmm!! I get it though. The have been on break for 2+ weeks and now tomorrow its back to school....who can sleep when they are used to staying up late excited for the holidays and playing with their friends. I get it but it still doesn't make me happy.
My son has ADHD which makes life difficult in its own way. Everyday whether its a school day (which are mostly difficult) or a weekend the days are the same. They always begin with an argument.....take your medicine....I don't want to take it today.......well you have to and you know you have to so just take it.....why, can't I just try it without it i won't be wild. It's just always a struggle and it gets old day after day. Sometimes I just sit and cry because it is so frustrating (hey you didn't think this was just gonna be fun and laughing did you? This is real life here). His dad, we shall just call "The Ass" has a real great temper, that would be sarcasm, and unfortunately for both me and my son (and I always say his future wife) he got the temper and oh boy its a doozey. There is screaming (at the top of his lungs) there is rolling around the floor while screaming (thats always great fun) there is swearing sometimes and there used to be hitting but that hasn't happened for about 3 years now. Just to be clear we are talking about my son here. We have been in therapy and out and I'm just at my wits end. Today was one of those wits end, give me tequila shots so I can just pass out days. He woke up not feeling well so we laid around all morning then he got bored and wanted to go to a friend's house but he wasn't home. By the time his friend called it was 5pm and I really didn't want him to go because we were going to eat dinner, there were showers to take and rooms to clean up and dishes to do and stuff to get ready for tomorrow but he told his friend he would be over and when I told him he couldn't go all hell broke loose. I know that impulsiveness is part of ADHD but man this is outta control at times. He screamed and threw things and broke a frame and knocked a bunch of stuff over and I ended up yelling and in his face (he made himself look really scared but any fool could see he isn't scared of me) and then I cracked my head open on the bunk beds. I took away his Xbox which caused more yelling and screaming and tantruming and I really wanted to break it but I didn't. I honestly haven't decided if he will ever see it again and that is freaking him out. The rest of the night was crappy..I'm moody, he feels bad but there is a part of me that believes he should because he does this all the time. Then there is the part of me that knows some of it is out of his control and I feel bad for thinking he should feel bad. A resolution of mine is we are definitely going and staying in therapy this time...no ifs, ands or buts.
My daughter is another story...she is just neurotic....like me. She wants to be grown up but she is afraid of everything including her own shadow.......like I was as a kid. I know where she is coming from so I try to have patience but she tries my patience alot. Like now she has told me she watched this thing on the internet or FB or something and it is totally like "The Ring" or something. She didn't do what it said to and now she thinks she is going to get killed tomorrow night at midnight. Been there, done that and I have tried to comfort her but nothing works and now she is freaking me out. Tomorrow ought to be terribly interesting with a ton to write about. Oh me oh my.....
Its been quiet now while I have been writing do I dare check on them? What will I find? Lets see......Well much to my surprise (more sarcasm) they are both sitting outside my room with their blankets and pillows.....we can't sleep mom what should we do? What we always do when you can't sleep......crawl into my bed and I will hold you and tell you a story.....Good Night Moon!
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